too tired..... 

 I'm stronger !!

Just need u now.....and hope everything will be ok

* scalpel menari2 di mata... hahahaha*

dear Mama....

Kemaren aku jadi sopir ke Straubing dong Ma....dah lama ga nyupir bawaannya pengen ngegas mulu hahahahaha....sempet sampai 160 hehehehehe (di jalan sepi kok :P)...Straubing itu deket perbatasan Austria...kayak deja vu ma :) ...inget kita ke Wina dulu ....jadi kangen banget sama Mama *pengenpeluk*

 dah dulu yah Mama sayang...waktu istirahatku dah habis ....muaach









*si Rara gi melow abis*

Happy Unity day Germany !! ...malam ini indah coz kembang api ga berenti2 di langit malam...tadi sempet mandangin lewat jendela mbil ngupi pas istirahat...tapi ntah kenapa melow justru menyerang hehehehehe

Tadi di mobil pas balik pak sopir nyetel lagu yang lyricnya lumayan mencuri perhatian....nyampe kamar langsung nanya mbah gugel...ternyata ntu lagu judulnya The Winner Takes it All ...lyricnya gini : 

I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play 

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules 

The gods may throw the dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all...

 Awalnya coz efek melow denger nih lagu but I found meaningful lyric...For me

The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain 

mmmm, So which one should I choose?... to be the winner or the loser?... of course I choose to be the winner... but, the winner has to loose many times before she turns out to be the winner... It needs a never ending "trial" to finally become the winner...I’m currently in the middle of process...No, I don’t want to give up!!!... The next few months will be hard for me...Doain lancar yeee

To be honest, I’ve never expected this before... But yeah this is life... Life will never be easy :)...kalo kata temen gue Life is never Flat, ya iyalah emangnya idup TV :p

*si Rara percaya (QS Al-Baqarah:286)*

Hidup gue mungkin sedang kacau , tapi gue lagi berusaha memperbaikinya.  Gue ga nyalahin siapa2, kekacauan ini coz gue sendiri.  Gue hanya perlu berhenti sebentar...

Syukuri aja apa yang masih ada ... kalo ga gini ga akan pernah ngerasain "nahan keinginan" dan sadar siapa yang bener2 tulus ma gue :)


You seem to find the dark when everything is bright  
You look for all that's wrong instead of all that's right  
Does it feel good to you to rain on my parade?  
You never say a word unless it's to complain  
It's driving me insane
 
If I were you, holding the world right in my hands 
The first thing I'd do is thank the stars for all that I have 
If I were you
 
Look what surrounds you now, more than you ever dreamed  
Have you forgotten just how hard it used to be?  
So what's it going to take for you to realize 
It all could go away in one blink of an eye?  
It happens all the time
 
If I were you, holding the world right in my hands  
The first thing I'd do is thank the stars above  
Tell the ones I love that I do 
Yeah, if I were you, whoa, yeah, if I were you 
If I were you, whoa, if I were you
 
So what's it going to take for you to realize 
It all could go away in one blink of an eye? 
It happens all the time
 
If I were you, holding the world right in my hands  
The first thing I'd do is thank the stars above for the ones I love 
Take a breath and enjoy the view  
Live the life that I've wanted to 
If I were you 
If I were you  
If I were you!


yeaaah Hoobastank-If I were u ....Jangan ngeluh Ra!...bersyukurlah sebelum semuanya hilang :D








*buat yang nitipin cek, maaf gue kembaliin...terharu makasih banget !!...Insya Allah gue bisa nyelesein masalah ini :)*

* I'll always love the false image I had of u ...*