O'on Mode : ON

wakakakakakaka......lupaaaaaaaaa ....hahahahahaha....ari ini dengan semangat 45 gue berangkat pagi ke konjen....setelah sampe gue disambut euy.....disambut sepi...hehehehehe...neh ari libur isra mi'raj ternyata di kalender Indonesia tercintaku.....wakakakakakaka....O'On :))

Masih pagi jadi jalanlah dolo....mampir2....sempet mampir ke mesjid indonesia...ketemu ma beberapa orang yang kayaknya kompak dengan pertanyaan "kemana aja ra?".....malah ade yang lebih sadis "kemana aja ilang dari peredaran"(dikira gue planet apa yah??!!?).....hehehehehe...susah deh kalo jadi celeb...nggak keliatan bentar aje dah ditanyain (kalo ini narsis mode: ON)....nggak kerasa emang dah cukup lama nggak gabung ma ni orang-orang :D...so say hello dan ngerumpilah bentar.....seneng...tanpa gue sadari, gue kangen ma suasana kayak gini...serasa pulang kampung....bisa nyunda...bisa betokaw...bisa denger si uni ecy dengan logat padangnya (piss ni!).....dan dapet mie ayam versi mbak anna.....nyummmmy mbak!!...pedesss...enak tenannn....makasih yo mbak....tau aje dah lama kaga ngemie ayam :))

"Community"......sekumpulan orang2 yang menyenangkan walopun kadang menyebalkan dengan keikut campurannya :D.....dolo waktu masih menjalin hubungan yang akrab dengan neh "community".....tiap minggu ngumpul dengan acara yang bermacam2....mulai dari belanja bareng ampe masak bareng.....pokoknya diusahain ngumpul deh.....bisa saling tuker cerita dan dapet oleh2 dari kampung halaman yang abis pulang kampung .....hehehehehe...rameee.....cuma yah itu nggak semua bagian dari "community" menyenangkan....menyebalkan kalo udah sampe di urusan "ngurusin" idup...idup gue khususnya :D....memilih menjauh belakangan ini....makanya muncul pertanyaan "kemana aja ra?" tadi kali yeh...hihihihihi

Tempat mampir setelah ke mejid adalah Balzac....kangeeennn.....dah lama nggak nyobain coffe dan soufflenya :)).....duh..nikmat banget deh mana dapet bonus es krim enak lagi....danke :)...bis itu pulang deh....dengan bawa roti dong tentunya...hehehehehe..udah dulu yah cerita2nya...ngantuk neh....wassalam

I'm tired !

Yes I'm tired.......

I am tired of defending myself.....I am tired of defending myself because I am selfish....I am tired of defending myself because I am arrogant....I am tired of defending myself because I am handicapped..... I am tired of defending myself :(

I am tired of needing to defend myself....I am tired of being looked down upon....I am tired of being different.....I am tired of being weak....I am tired of justifying my existences.....I am tired of making excuses...I am tired of defending myself to people who do not know me, and I am tired of defending myself to those who do......

So all this is to say, I won’t be around, I won't be anything, I won't be....:(

[I won’t know what in the hell is going on with u.....and I’m sad about that...but then I think about the ocean and my life and seeing all my old friends and meeting new ones and I forget!!!. . . who are u again? Oh, come on. . . I am kidding! U know I love u more than my "nothing" :)]

I sit here in tears because I just love "with him" so much and I hate what's happening....and I have to admit, I hate that I see that reflected in how he handle his heart....yelling.

I just want things to go back to normal.....I don't know how to get there :(

I am in love with u

I bloom and grow so beautifully....i'm happy....so happy to be yours

I am in love with u...u know honey? u set met free....i know it ain't easy to loving me...honey, love me for u see in me not for who i am...u make my heart smiles
honey, Just keep lovin' me...the way I love u loving me


I'm blushing!!!!!

Sesuatu bout cinta :)

cinta tak pernah akan begitu indah jika tanpa persahabatan
yang satu selalu menjadi penyebab yang lain
dan prosesnya adalah irreversible......

Seorang pecinta yang terbaik adalah sahabat yang terhebat.
Jika engkaumencintai seseorang,
jangan berharap bahwa seseorang itu akan mencintaimu persis sebaliknya dalam kapasitas yang
sama.
Satu diantara kalian akan memberikan lebih, yang lain akan dirasa kurang...........
Begitu juga dalam cinta: engkau yang mencari, dan yang lain akan menanti......

Jangan pernah takut untuk jatuh cinta
mungkin akan begitu menyakitkan,
dan mungkin akan menyebabkan engkau sakit dan menderita
tapi jika engkau tidak mengikuti kata hati,
pada akhirnya engkau akan menangis.......
Jauh lebih pedih, karena saat itu menyadari bahwa engkau tidak pernah memberi
.... cinta itu sebuah jalan.

Cinta bukan sekedar perasaan, tapi sebuah komitmen....
Perasaan bisa datang dan pergi begitu saja......
Cinta tak harus berakhir bahagia.....
karena cinta tidak harus berakhir.....

Cinta sejati mendengar apa yang tidak dikatakan
dan mengerti apa yang tidak dijelaskan,
sebab cinta tidak datang dari bibir dan lidah atau pikiran.........

Ketika engkau mencintai, jangan mengharapkan apapun sebagai imbalan,
karena jika engkau demikian, engkau bukan mencintai, melainkan..... investasi.

Jika engkau mencintai, engkau harus siap untuk menerima penderitaan.
Karena jika engkau mengharap kebahagiaan, engkau bukan mencintai,
melainkan.... memanfaatkan.

Lebih baik kehilangan harga diri dan egomu bersama seseorang yang engkau Cintai,
daripada kehilangan seseorang yang engkau cintai, karena egomu yang tak berguna itu........


Jangan mencintai seseorang seperti bunga,
karena bunga mati kala musim berganti,
cintailah mereka seperti sungai,
sebab sungai mengalir selamanya........


Cinta mungkin akan meninggalkan hatimu bagaikan kepingan2 kaca,
tapi tancapkan dalam pikiranmu,
bahwa ada seseorang yang akan bersedia untuk menambal lukamu
dengan mengumpulkan kembali pecahan2 kaca itu.....
Sehingga engkau akan menjadi utuh kembali......


(Dapet dari blog walking....cuma dah lupa alamat urlnya :D...untuk penciptanya thanks yah!!! )

Memiliki Kehilangan - Letto

Tak mampu melepasnya, walau sudah tak ada
Batinmu tetap merasa masih memilikinya
Resah kehilangan, hanya akan ada...
jika kau pernah merasa memilikinya.

Reff :
Pernahkah kau mengira kalau dia kan sirna
Walau kau tak percaya dengan sepenuh jiwa
Resah kehilangan, hanya akan ada...
Jika kau pernah merasa memilikinya.

Back to Reff

Lovely way to memorialize "our love"

Thursday, October 4, 2007

dear honey....

I wonder why u chose me and why u are with me...So many hard times but many more good times....We share the same things....we try to understand each other...even try to be there as friends...as soul mates.

As I look into ur eyes I see how much u love me "I really understand how much u care about me"...........I don't ask for much, only for u to love me as I am and not to hurt me as I would not hurt u....I only wish to be by ur side and with no one else...... I enjoy spending time with u....I know I don't tell u that I love u, but as the days go by, my love for u grows, and each day I thanks God that I find u...

All I want is to take us away...away from the pain and just to share what we have with each other...

Honey...Stay with me and see the world together....Take my hand as we walk through these pains to the sun shining on the other side....I LOVE U SO MUCH!

-yours-

____________________________________________________________________

Friday, October 12, 2007
F.E.E.L.I.N.G.C.A.L.L.E.D.L.O.V.E

Dear honey...

My hand is trembling when i type these words, there's lot of thoughts on my mind, all of them about u. How u came into my life. It's a surprise, a nice surprise & it's all happened when u came & stayed in my heart. Never felt this way before, maybe this is what u get when u opened ur heart to someone, u'll feel...

Sometimes i picture u as a thief, coz u steal my loneliness but in the same time ur also giving coz u replace that loneliness with compassionate, care, love, warmth, comfort & i'm so grateful for that. Can't imagine anything else. U filled a hole, ur a missing puzzle, an answer for a question that i've seek for so long...

This path, journey, dream, or even hope that we share together not even logic can't beat them!!!

Often in life we ask so many why questions. I know that u are too. Why does he loves me? Why does he chooses me? Why am I feeling like this, is it rational? I can't answer all off ur "why" question, but my presence here with u has to be be a proof of something. That i'm here with u to stay. I'll love without u have to wonder or ask why....


-yours-

Daniel Bedingfield - Nothing Hurts (like Love)

There just something's that love brings.
When you learn that its all been a lie,
You cry, you find that...

Nothing, nothing,
Nothing hurts like love.
Nothing brings your heart so much pain,
And you'll never learn til you get burned,
'til you're burned by the flame.
Nothing hurts so bad,
Nothing hurts so much.
No nothing hurts, like love.

So you gave all you had,
How the story turned so sad.
Nothing left but the tears in your eyes,
You die inside 'cause...

Nothing, nothing,
Nothing hurts like love.
Nothing brings your heart so much pain.
And youll never learn,
'Til you get burned,
'Til youre burned by the flame.
Nothing hurts so bad,
Nothing hurts so much,
No nothing hurts like love.

So dry your eyes, it's just your turn to hurt,
Your time to find that,
Nothing,nothing.

Nothing
Nothing

[Instrumental]
Nothing
Nothing

[Instrumental]
Nothing hurts like love,
Nothing brings your heart so much pain,
And you'll never learn,
'Til you get burned,
'Til you're burned by the flame.
Nothing hurts so bad,
Nothing hurts so much.
No nothing, hurts like love.